The way you signed your question pretty much sums up your response. It sounds like you and the "friends" you have now are mismatched and you need to find true friends. Real buds are supposed to see the best in you and help you see the best in yourself. Look for people with similar interests who really seem to value their friends. When you do, I'm sure you'll perceive friends and the meaning of friendship differently - it'll be fun. Honest!